must... fit... bathing suit...

so we took the girls to the waterford-like mall last night to eat and walk around. while walking through a store, i finally found a bathing suit that i like a lot and is reasonably priced. i hesitantly tried it on, bringing two different sizes into the dressing room with me - the size i wanted to fit and the size i thought would realistically fit. after giving up on my dreams and changing into the more realistic size, i asked my hubby to come into the dressing room to cast his vote. he confirmed my own disappointment that even the more realistic size was too small. it was a devastating blow to the esteem and i refuse to go to a larger size. i knew i shouldn't have tried it on. it was jus so cute. anyhow, that inspired my lunch-gymming today. forty-five minutes on the treadmill. i didn't go yesterday because i was so exhausted (much like today since i couldn't fall asleep untill well after 03:00) but i did go when i got out of bed sunday morning. i did thirty minutes on the treadmill and forty-five minutes on weights then. i'm not doing nearly as well as my cousin, but she is inspiring me to try harder. her and the very cute bathing suit that i want (and need - how can i live at the beach with only one bathing suit?).